Moving Self Portraitures

The three works below are part of an on-going series of cyanotype photographs I started during the quarantine titled 'Moving Self Portraitures'. They are layers of video stills of myself, printed with the sun and photosensitive solutions known as cyanotype. The photos showcase my on and off intimacy and hatred towards my body, which grew and changed in just the span of being in quarantine. My mental state became unstable because of the anxiety pooling from the virus. This affected me physically and the once I called “safe place” became disrupted. Fortunately, I was able to see the light at the end of the tunnel sooner and directed these emotions into something I can share to the world.  

Bottomline, the photos show the mix of different state and layers of what my “home” is, which is my body. There is always an equilibrium of chaos and peace inside us. My body carries that equilibrium as well. 

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This series was recently exhibited at Somewhere Gallery for "Mementos of Self"

joliz dela pena cyanotype self portrait
joliz dela pena cyanotype self portrait
joliz dela pena cyanotype self portrait